stock hit me up with a message yesterday saying that we need to bring back the daily blog. at first i was like, bro, i have been doing the daily blog where you at? and then i looked through my posts and realized that i have been slippin. i was in good form until about mid-february when i started posting about every four days. now granted, the reason i slowed down was to make room for completing the first three chapters of the distant future story, but that is in the bag and the excuse is gone. so why am i still on this every three to five day schedule? and how did i not even realize i’ve been missing days? i should say that i consciously skipped posting this weekend because frankly i was too damn busy. but from the 20th onward there is really no reason i shouldn’t have been posting every day.
it really comes down to this: other priorities are taking precedence over this blog, and i need to recenter. the daily is where i track progress, and when we’re not tracking our progress the chances are that we aren’t making as much as we need to be. that’s not to say i haven’t been absolutely slammed with work lately. my office gig has got me pushing with every ounce lately and i’ve been putting in even longer hours than normal to get on the right footing for what comes next. in photo world, i have been working every couple of days on various projects and i still have deep edits in the pipeline—in fact, i really need to crush that work out in the next couple of days or it’s going to get out of hand. meanwhile shanima and i are planning for two major trips that will take us to 11 countries this year, and we are hitting logistical snags at every step. truth is, i need to start chronicling these challenges because the lessons.we are learning really useful and probably have potential for some monetization. in fact, i should probably start vlogging and blogging about that. if only there were more time in the day.
so let’s get to the realness. i am not going to sit here and proclaim that i will absolutely do this or that. i am not going to guarantee that i will post here every day, but i am going to recommit to making it a priority. stock suggested that we should be posting every day even if it is just to say “hard day, no time.” i agree with the sentiment there but truth be told, if i’m really having a hard day, it generally means that i don’t even have time for that. i know that sounds absurd, but it is what it is. consider that i didn’t even get up from my desk today at all from the time i sat down until 4:15 pm when i finally had time to pee and grab a snack. once that was over i was back in the saddle on phones and pushing complex content again until i stepped out just after 6pm. i’m only now completing a post i started this morning. one of the consequences of my work being so engaging right now is that it requires all of the focus and intellect i possess. most of the shit i write about all day makes even the most intelligent people i know glaze over when i start to dive in full steam. between that, trying to work on finding what is next after the big trip, working on photos, refining the itinerary for our upcoming travel, being a good husband and human being, and chipping away at my fiction project, there is sometimes so little room for that extra ounce that is the blog. and none of these items are able to be pushed back because there is no time tomorrow for things that should’ve been done today.
all of that is why as much as i love this blog, sometimes i have to make executive decisions not to post. so what is the verdict? i think i come to this: i can accept not posting if and only if it is for a valid reason, which is that i am too thoroughly engaged in productive tasks to turn attention to this page. but i will not accept not posting because i don’t feel like it. and as much as i see the merit in posting every day even if it’s just to check in, there are probably going to be times that isn’t possible.
at the end of all of this, i’m still not convinced about my own stance and it remains malleable. what i will day is this, come hell or high water, i will do my absolute damndest to post every day. because the truth is, i look forward to this outlet and i fee incomplete without it.