i don’t really have much to offer today. it’s been a hell of a week, getting pushed around at work, realizing it’s time to prepare for a major adjustment even if the circumstances aren’t completely ideal - i would prefer to hold steady until june, but that feels like less of an option than i’d like it to be). it’s not all bad, though. i had a breakthrough yesterday and it helped boost my morale and standing, but there is an ever-mounting pile of negative that feels like it far outweighs the positive right now.

truth is, objectively, i can take the heat and knowing i am only a few short months away from the next step anyway should be enough to keep me going. part of me is of the conviction that i need to man up and just do my job. but the other part believes that we only have one life and to waste it by staying in a negative situation for any amount of time is irresponsible. the angel and demon on my shoulder are losing sleep lately as they debate the merits of each diverging path as i stand awaiting their consensus in my own personal yellow wood.

the good news is, it’s friday, and i won’t have to think about most of this over the weekend. even though i have some heavy stuff to deal with over the weekend on a personal front, i find myself being so basic in that i am so fucking glad it’s friday right now.