something i’ve always been self-conscious about is that i have a lazy eye. it’s not always that apparent and a lot of people say they never even notice it until i tell them about it. but i notice it. it’s especially obvious from certain angles and i always see it clearly when i am looking straight into a camera. of all the reasons i hesitate to vlog, this is at the top of the list.
but i need to get over it. i have shit to say, and i can’t let my own self-consciousness get in the way of saying it. because probably no one will care, and anybody who hates on it is just an asshole that i don’t need following and subscribing anyway. all of this is easier said than done, but i need to say it. i need to get over the hump.
we all have our own thorn in the flesh, that one thing that above all others has a tendency to derail us. most people’s issues are less , shall we say, in your face than mine, but that doesn’t mean i’m the only person that suffers from self-consciousness. there are plenty of straight-eyed people out there making content. maybe i can be the weirdo who is out there making content for all the other weirdos.
the bottom line is, lazy eye or not, i’ve gor a vision and i need to see it through.