do you ever get that feeling that you’re just too damn busy? you don’t remember when it started, but you know there was a point not that long ago that your agenda was manageable and it no longer is?
i’m at that point now that i am realizing how little wiggle room i have in my life. how dependent i am on the precious subway time i have to do my personal writing. last night i was in late shift and i ended up missing my fiction post for the day because i just had no time to do it. and i don’t mean that i had time but i squandered it. i literally had zero free minutes yesterday.
on the ride in to work, after i finished my daily post, i was working on some retouches for some photos i shot a week and a half ago that i’d planned to work on this weekend, but was unable to because a trip upstate to pay respects to an important person in my life took a few more hours than planned. and then it was work like a dog until 8:30pm when i signed off and jumped a cab home. on the ride home, i talked through the logistics of an engagement shoot that i am doing on sunday, which pretty much took the whole ride to finish. it was a great call and i’m really excited for this shoot, my first engagement shoot for some very special people in mine and shanima’s life.
then, when i got home; shanima needed to vent some frustrations and talk through some things so that she can approach a touchy work situation with a clear head. and finally, i worked on a cover letter for a job i’d like to apply for at a non-profit. i didn’t even finish the cover letter because i was too creatively exhausted and wasn’t able to make any sense; so i put it down with the intent to pick it up this morning.
that didn’t happen because i still had some retouches to do on the sarah taylor portraits that needed to be done today so she can use them for her marketing. and now i’m here on the train, running about 15-20 minutes late for work and counting since this fucking subway is moving at about quarter speed while the conductor thanks me for patience i literally do not have.
it’s going to be another slog today, with a full load of calls to make, stories to work on at work, a photo shoot on the lunch break, and a court hearing to listen in to in the afternoon. but at least i can look forward to dinner and a movie at the in-laws tonight.