i really overestimated my ability to not sleep the whole way back from upstate last night, and now i’m behind schedule on my fiction project. i started writing a scene last night and it just came out like garbledigook so i put the ipad away and decided that i would do what i really need to get done and start working on my character casting. i totally blanked. how is it that i was unable to think of one movie or television character that i wanted to use as a baseline for elias in my story? or for any other character roles i’ve identified for that matter? it’s so bizarre. i am not going to let this roadblock stop me but damned if i’m not slowed by it. today in my spare moments at work, i will be thinking about character casting and see if i can’t at least fill the roles that need to be filled in order to move the story past chapter two. one bite at a time.
i’m also behind schedule on delivering some retouches to suswana from our most recent photo shoot, which is probably fine with her but not great for me because it means i have one more thing to take care of on a weeknight tonight would be ideal, before i head to the gym. if i can even get two of the images done, that will be a good night, though i am pretty sure once i get started it will be pretty quick
if i had been home all weekend, i would be down on myself for my lack of progress, but yesterday i spent the day upstate with camille, who was much in need of buddy time. we went to a panel discussion about hate and intolerance that included some pretty interesting speakers, and i snapped some photos to send to the organizers as a favor to help camille out since she is likely going to need support from the group ladies in the coming months. from there, we tread some old roads and eventually made our way to her dad and mom’s final resting place. it was really tough for her to talk about, and i could tell she was in no rush to go over there, so we didn’t make it until about a half hour before i had to get on the train, but it was enough time for me to let pops know i was there.
so yeah, i fell off the wagon a bit when it comes to my daily writing, and i have a backlog of photos to work through now. but i think under the circumstances, i’m at peace with that. i’ll continue forward at the same pace i would if i hadn’t skipped a blog post saturday or a fiction post friday. as if i hadn’t written less photo posts that i should be writing last week. because it’s important for us to pay respect to others, and sometimes that means putting ourselves aside.